EIGHT ways to win your heart;
o8. be willing to deal with me. i know how trying i am. it means something if you can take it.
o7. just...be honest with me. ask me questions. tell me how you feel. and not what you think i want to hear.
o6. touch me. often. hold my hand. anything. just that physical contact is enough most of the time.
o5. be confident. believe in yourself. it will make me believe in you, too.
o4. give me space. don't cling. not always. silence can help you. a bit of distance is good.
o3. listen to me. really listen. that's all.
o2. be willing to teach me. there's a lot i don't know about. don't brush me off as just not knowing. help me understand. let me into your world sometime.
o1. don't be afraid. you can hurt me. i'll bounce back. i'll tell you if i'm really bothered. never ever hold anything back.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot;
o7.”when will i ever need this..? oh, right. never.”
o6.”what am i forgetting this time?”
o5.”what did i do?”
o4.”i don't understand.”
o3.”i don't want to. but i have to. damn.”
o2. "but from this perspective..."
o1. he knows who he is. always.

SIX things you wish you could say to SIX different people right now;
o6. sweetheart, you are so selfless. being around you lightens my heart. every time. you lift me up. and never fail. i wish we were in close contact still. but yanno. next year. maybe. i hope. you deserve every single one of your dreams. don't you dare let anyone tell you no. you are worth it. you are brilliant. you are bright. you are shining. you are strong. i adore you. you CAN do it. you are absolutely beautiful to me. in every way. i hope i can do something similar for you one day.L
o5. you. what happened to us? i don't know who you are anymore. i don't think you quite know either. but i still want to know. even after everything. i still want us to be...normal. we can't be. i want to let go. i'd be happier. but i won't. you're too important. you mean too much. you meant too much. i'm still your magical marionette and you're pulling the strings. your kicked puppy who is so happy to see you after you left me in the snow. pat me on the head now. tell me i'm a good girl.M
o4. i'm not quite sure how to feel about you. you understand me immediately without my having to explain how i feel or rephrase. it's really neat. i think you're quickly becoming one of my closest friends. you're kind, even if you hide it sometimes. but you always catch me when i'm falling. literally. and that sort of support. that physical and emotional support. it's hard for me to find. and it's like you never even have to consider it. you just know what i need. and you constantly make me laugh. thank you.T
o3. you've always been special. you'll always have that piece of my heart. i gave it to you. it's yours forever. i want to see you more. but i know you have your own life now. and that i'm just a small part of it. that's okay. i've continued my life too. but i would never be who i am today without you. i owe you so much more than i could ever give.S
o2. you mean so friggin much to me, you little goof. you do what i say pretty much all the time, but you have me wrapped around your little finger. and you damn well know it too. can't wait to see you again. i think we're always gonna be friends. we've gone so long seeing each other only on rare occasions and i still feel like we're so close. i'm so glad to have you.G
o1. i miss you. you are my angel here on earth. i know it. being away from you so much has been the worst part of being away at university. i know you're trying. i know you care. i just wish... things could be like they were. i need you. you've made me dependent on you, you jerk. i love you so much for it.I

FIVE things you do before you fall asleep;
o5. shower
o4. computer
o3. talk to katrina. or roxy.
o2. fidget. a lot.
o1. think. too much. lay awake.

FOUR things you see right now;
o4. ibeLIEve (my iPod)
o3. zutto (my phone)
o2. petit-noir (my laptop mini)
o1. jasper (my body pillow)

THREE songs that you listen to often;
o3. Roadside by Rise Against
o2. No Brakes by The Bravery
o1. Up Against The Wall by Boys Like Girls

TWO things you want to do before you die;
o2. i want to be as confident and strong internally as i present myself to be. maybe my rising sign and sun sign should do a trait exchange. x3
o1. i want to be willing to trust someone without exception. and i want to be with that person for as long as i possibly can.

ONE confession;
o1. yes, i'm selfish. yes, i'm distant. yes, i'm a liar. yes, i'm manipulative. yes, i'm objective to the point of cruelty on accident. and on purpose. but i can change. make it worth my effort.


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